There is a subtle seduction in old pictures of yourself, an attraction that leaves you lost in rosy memories of your own youth. Hard for all, it must be nearly impossible to resist for actors. And I imagine it is doubly so for women due to the cultural pressures that exploit our natural human tendencies. Or so I thought.

I knew everything.

I decided to write this article when I noticed my own unconscious attraction to a 30-year-old picture of myself. And there I am, waiting for the Staten Island ferry in the glory of youth. If you don’t have an old picture from your misspent youth, photo filters are ready to step up. With the click of a mouse, you can shed 30 years of life and experience in an instant.

New Self Image

I just took a new photo. And rather than filtering it within an inch of its life, I just shifted it over a bit to make it look “edgy”. It doesn’t have that youthful confidence from the old picture. But. It does show more respectable facial hair, and subtle intensity born of experience. Maybe, if I really work at it, my internal image of myself can shift closer to who I am now, gray hair and all.

I know less, now.

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